azureeyed_dream

time flies

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 22:53:32 GMT

I finally got to getting something down. Been crazy lately with working my crappy summer job and hanging out with friends. Been going back in forth between home and where I'm living for the summer. I'm counting down the days till I turn 19 and then leave for my trip. Also can't wait to go to Pride in two weekends. My friend is going to be on a float so it is going to be awesome. Woot! Woot! Pride!

finally back

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 16:10:02 GMT

I just moved into my place for the summer and start my summer job soon. I can't wait to start making some money. I finally unpacked the last of my stuff yesterday and now I feel more at home in my new place. Everything seems to be going well except for this cold weather that is happening the rest of this week =(

can't wait !!!!!!

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 19:37:10 GMT

Finally school is coming to an end! Just one more exam to get through and then I can feel the freedom of summer =) Now I just have to pack up the last of my things, head back home for a week or two and then move into my new place. So I probably won't be updating this thing for awhile. I will just be really busy with going back home, seeing old friends and looking for a job. I need to make money this summer so I can afford to live next year while at school. Then I will finish out this working summer in Australia for a month. Can't wait !!!!!!!

communication

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 01:18:49 GMT

Story....
My best friend has recently been going through some problems with his girlfriend of like 3 months. The basis of these problems are because they both want different things from the relationship. She wants to go out and have fun and be in a more open relationship and he wants a more serious monogamous relationship. From this has stemmed jealously, fear and insecurity.

Advice....
So I told my friend that he should have a serious heart-to-heart conversation with his girlfriend. Hopefully they will both be able to tell each other how they feel and state what they want from the relationship. I hope they will be able to sort things out, whether they stay together or break-up is anyones guess.

So the whole reason for this is to ask the question, why don't people communicate as much as they should?
Personally, this seems so foreign to me because I'm a blunt and forward person and just says what I need to say. From where I'm standing it seems that this whole situation my friend is in, could have been avoided if he just asked early on, what she wanted from the relationship. He could have saved himself the potential heartbreak (he really fell for this girl) if he was upfront about what he was looking for from the relationship.
So I again I ask, why don`t people communicate as much as they should?

fun fun

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 23:49:05 GMT

Wow! Time sure flies by. I was finally able to catch up with some of the girls on my old soccer team this weekend. It was great just to hang out with friends and go bowling. Which by the way I suck at! It is definately not my sport but still fun nonetheless. I couldn't believe how everyone has changed in the last year, and I'm probably included in that. Oh course I couldn't get through the night without seeing my old coach, and him pitching me the plans he has for the team and how I should come out next year for them. I highly doubt that will happen because I just want to play recreationally after I'm all healed up and done physio. It also seems that I can't get through a weekend without some girl giving me confusing signals. Jeez, just quit with the games already! Either way it was a fun weekend and I can't wait for more once uni is finished.

april 19th

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 04:43:06 GMT

So for awhile now I have been thinking of getting my first tattoo. It will sorta be a for my 1 yr after having my ACL reconstructed....stupid soccer, but also just something to live by. So I came up with "To each new sunrise wake up with the strength of no regret" (my own saying so it's more personal) but also added a little black and blue butterfly (more mainstream, i know) at the bottom of it. Come April19th I will have it tattooed between my shoulder blades ya! can't wait!

back

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 05:25:00 GMT

So I'm finally back from my long hiatus. Things just got crazy busy with school, friends, family, physio, finding a place to live and getting a job. It seems like the list of things never seems to end. Finally uni will be wrapping up and the summer can begin =) I'm really only looking forward to August so I can chill in Australia for a month.

why am i not studying?!?!?

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 19:42:58 GMT

Well I can't seem to focus and study, when I really should seeing as I have finals next week. Then i'm off on christmas break to earn some cash working and of course spend some time with my family. I guess the reason my focus has shifted it just because i'm almost done this semester, that and I can't get a girl off my mind. The reasoning for this post was recently sparked by a topic I was reading about , "why fall for straight girls?" and i agree with a comment that was made, that straight girls are like mcdonalds, one on every corner lol! So my logical reasoning behind getting my focus back is to rant as much as possible and get all of this off my chest.
My friend (a straight girl) is amazing! and i mean amazing, like i have never met anyone like her in my entire life. So i'm basically in love with her, but refuse to tell her so, although i do compliment her constantly about how amazing she really is (she used to have a really low self-esteem). I also tell her i love her but you know in the 'friends' way and she tells me it back. We used to talk every night before going to bed, but that has lessened to like once a week because we both have busy lives. Then on the off chance that I get to see her once and awhile, because we live in different cities, she is all touchy-feely with me, which can be really frustrating for me. I just want to kiss her so bad, but I know that it would make things weird between us or worse and i can't bear not to have her in my life. So the only way I get by is by being touchy-feely with her to a point, so we cuddle, i let her sit on my lap, i will rub her thigh, rest my head on her shoulder and talk softly into her ear. You would think she would shy away from me doing this but no! she lets me do it, and always leans into me more and moves closer to me.
So ya thats my rant on my straight girl. if anyone wants to comment or has some advice on this topic go right ahead. maybe you can tell me how 'straight' my friend really is.

a no show

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 05:08:55 GMT

For the past few days, I have been kinda nervous but looking forward to talking to this mystery girl I see everywhere I go. But of course in the one class that I sit beside her in, she fails to show up. So this is me goin insane. I guess I will just have to wait until next class. In the meantime I will pray that she will actually show up. Now to go bury my head in some books and study, ewww!

mystery girl

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 03:19:00 GMT

Obviously by the title, there is this mystery girl I see in practically all my classes. Today, she was even in my economics class when I know she isn't actually in my class normally. Now it wasn't like she sat near me or anything so the only logical reason for why she was there today is because its a Friday, and my class is the early one. If it was me I would go to the early class too, to start the weekend off early =) So the reason why I write this post is because I'm interested in her. We sit next to eachother is my psychology class, and we always are looking at eachother when we think the other one isn't looking. It's really cute, and so is she. There is just something about her that makes me want to get to know her. I can't figure out what it is, but it could do with the fact that I have never even spoken to her before and we've be sitting beside eachother pretty much since the beginning of school. She's also in my intro to htm course, but I sit nowhere near her and only realized she was in that class like a week and a half ago. Now I'm not a stalker or anything but I've done my homework thanks to Facebook. I know she has a boyfriend and is in the same program as me, but she may have a different major. Either way I'm thinking of starting a conversation with her the next time I sit beside her in class on Tuesday. I'm just not sure how to approach her, but I'm thinking I will just put on the old charm of being blunt and funny. So I know this post is pretty long, so I think I will stop over-analysing this situation and just go with the flow and see if we can at least start by being friends.

sad day

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 02:40:04 GMT

This has gotta be one of my saddest days in awhile. I just heard from my mom, that she had to put our dog Ellie down today. I guess she got out onto the road and got hurt pretty bad. So I've just been crying over the past hour, wondering why, because I never really liked her. Lets just say she was a big pain in the ass but then again she was only a puppy and not even a year old. I guess I cared about her more then I thought. The ironic part is that it was a year ago tomorrow was the day that we put my last dog, Barley down. Maybe its just that I didn't get to say goodbye, whatever it is I'm goin to go back to my sad place.

update

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 15:00:00 GMT

It has been a few days since I last posted anything and I thought an update was in order, especially with my friend situation. So I finally got to talk to her after about a six days of no communication. Thats what happens when you go on vacation up north and bring no means to contact anyone. We shared a long conversation of swapping stories about our weekends and things started to feel like it was back to normal between us. It still isn't the way it used to be but it is better and progress was all I was looking for. In order to fill the void I have tried to stay focused on my school work and other activities, just to get my mind off thinking about it. I think I will just let time take its course and hope to visit her soon. Other then that everything else seems to be going well. I'm still not sure if I'm coming down with a cold or anything because lately I have been really tired and my head has been kinda conjested but whatever. I guess that is what you get for spending an entire weekend around sick people, both friends and family. I'm bound to catch something with such close contact, that and with the amount of germs that fly around campus.

fun weekend

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 00:53:21 GMT

This past weekend was really good for me. I finally got my mind off school and other things bothering me in my life. I went home and partied with a bunch of my friends who I haven't seen in ages. I also ended up meeting a bunch of new people so I hope to run into them again the next time I go home. Hugs and stories were exchanged and it was a good change of pace overall. Of course I had to hear about the drama that was also going on, but I am glad to have the distance between that sort of environment. Now I have to get back to the good old technique of hitting the books =( but I do have something to look forward too in a few weeks. A couple of my friends and I are planning to take my friend up to Montreal for her birthday. just to let her loose from her boyfriend and have some fun, seeing as she doesn't usually celebrate her birthday much. She has the philosophy of 'its just another day of the year' so I will definately change her way of thought this year. I plan on starting it off with her favourite, a chocolate cake with lots of chocolate icing =)

good friends are hard to come by

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 03:24:01 GMT

So just recently I have been getting mixed feelings from one of my best friends. I don't know what is going on with her but it is like she is pulling away from me. Up to this point our friendship has been great and getting really strong, but now it feels like she isn't telling me everything. We talk everyday on the phone and I try to visit her as much as possible, because we live in two different towns. It is just lately I haven't been able to visit her because of our conflicting schedules. I go to school and so does she but she also works on top of that along with our social lives too. I'm fine with not seeing her for a bit but then the phone calls became less, which has been bothering me. I wish I knew why all this was happening so I could try and fix the problem and just go back to the way we were.

first time

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 03:15:29 GMT

So I am new to LiveJournal, and found out about it from a friend. So I thought I would give it a try and make some new online friends. I wrote some brief things about myself in my profile, and to know anything else about me just ask.